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Sun, Oct. 23rd, 2005, 09:30 pm

ooooo, haven't updated in forever....I actually spent money today. I bought "Anatomy for Artists: a comprehensive guide to drawing the human body" by Daniel Carter & Michael Courtney. I just searched for the book on Amazon and on the net and couldn't find ANYTHING...maybe thats why it was on sale.. I got Vol. 1 of Comic Party. I saw the first episode of the anime a long time ago and it rocked my socks. Emilee saw it in the manga section and was all like "OMG buy it." I'm going to learn that anatomy book like a bible so I can draw better human figures. ><

Oh my goodness! I finished the line-art on a cute halloween pic. I'll scan it once dad hooks up the scanner. Speaking of dad, his back spasmed like whoa this morning when we went to walk the dogs. We decided not to walk the dogs after that.

I was re-entertaining the idea of applying to NC School of the Arts. They only have an 11th and 12th grade program for their Vis. Arts High School Diploma. They don't even have undergraduate programs. How lame. It would probably be a waste to go there...I'd miss all my friends and Mrs. Kirk. Speaking of schools, I got nominated for Governor's School for visual arts. Sweet! I finished the application and I have to turn it in tomorrow. ^.~

Mrs. Maples wants me to tutor someone. She says they'll pay me. sweet. Plus Ash said she knows a guy who is writing a manga for Clamp and he said he needed artists and she called to get my permission to give him my number. I was like hot damn and hell yea! Getting jobs is definately cool. I should probably go to bed.


Sun, Oct. 9th, 2005, 04:28 pm
With you in that dress my thoughts I confess verge on dirty, Oh come on Eileen!

I printed out a 12 page beginners anime tutorial last night. I'm getting real serious about art all of a sudden and I love it.

Emilee's friend is thinking about eating meat again and Emilee is getting uber pissed at her and she reminds me of myself. So funny.

I've been thinking about it lately and I don't think I want a boyfriend right now. No one's banging down the door to ask me out buy, ya know...I don't need or want one.

Here is mai christmas list that I made for my mum and daid:

"Brianna Christmas/Birthday List
Here’s a list of the stuff I want. You can get me some of this stuff or anything else you think I’d want. Make sure the other parent or relative is not getting the same things. I don’t want you to buy me everything on this list (unless you really want to ^^) I just wanted to give you a choice instead of telling you exactly what I wanted and taking all the fun out of it.

Books: Here are some books that I want. You can get me some of these or maybe other books you think I’d like.
a. Veganism
Vegan with a Vengeance: Over 150 Delicious, Cheap, Animal-Free Recipes That Rock by Isa Chandra Moskowitz
How It All Vegan! : Irresistible Recipes for an Animal-Free Diet by Sarah Kramer, Tanya Barnard
The Garden of Vegan: How It All Vegan Again! By Tanya Barnard, Sarah Kramer
La Dolce Vegan! : Vegan Livin’ Made Easy by Sarah Kramer
Becoming Vegan : The Complete Guide to Adopting a Healthy Plant-Based Diet by Brenda Davis, Vesanto Melina
The Vegan Sourcebook by Joanne Stepaniak
Being Vegan by Joanne Stepaniak
Vegan: The New Ethics of Eating by Erik Marcus
Meat Market: Animals, Ethics, and Money by Erik Marcus
No More Bull!: The Mad Cowboy Targets America’s Worst Enemy: Our Diet by Howard F. Lyman
b. Other Stuff
Understanding Comics by Scott McCloud
No Logo, No Space, No Choice, No Jobs by Naomi Klein
Ghost World by Dan Clowes
How to Draw Manga: Getting Started by K’s Art
The Natural Way to Draw : A Working Plan for Art Study by Kimon Nicolaides
How to Draw Manga: Vol. 1 by Society for the Study of Manga Techniques

Art Supplies: most of this stuff is sold at Michaels. Ask a sales person if you can’t find them. They should know where it’s at, that’s what they’re paid for.
Sketching or Art “Kits”- you know, the box sets that come with everything you need. Those are neat. A good gift idea I guess.
Prismacolor colored pencils-these are the best brand I know of. I already have the “Verithin” variety. Staples also carries these. Other professional-looking brands will work.
Prismacolor markers, or another brand of professional art markers would work
Sakura Pigma Micron Inking Pens- very tiny tips for line-art, they come in sizes .005, .01, .02, .03, and .08. I REALLY need these in all sizes. I could use them in other colors, but I mostly need black, mostly.
SHARPIES!- I always need Sharpies, in the regular sizes and ultra fine sizes. I use black a lot but would LOVE some other colors.
Erasers- The kneaded erasers are good, or maybe the white clicky erasers they sell at Wal-mart.

Vegan Stuffs:
These Stores sell great vegan stuff. Please take time to check out all of them, they need your support. ^^
*Cosmo’s Vegan Shoppe http://www.cosmosveganshoppe.com/
They have awesome gift baskets!
*Food Fight Grocery http://store.foodfightgrocery.com/
I really like their zines( in the “Stuff to Read” section) and the stuff in the “Miscellany” section.
*Alternative Outfitters http://www.alternativeoutfitters.com/
Really cute shoes and bags and stuff
*Vegan Essentials http://www.veganessentials.com/
A good all-around store with lots of great items
*Animal Rights Stuff http://www.animalrightstuff.com/
Really cool shirts
*Pangea Vegan Store http://www.veganstore.com/
Another good store

I want subscriptions to the following:
Herbivore Magazine http://www.herbivoreclothing.com/magazine.page.html
This site also has cool t-shirts
VegNews Magazine http://www.vegnews.com/
Satya Magazine http://www.satyamag.com/
The Cheap Vegan http://www.vegetarianbaby.com/cheapvegan.shtml"

I hope I don't look like a little shit writing one of those, but my parents usually just want me to tell them exactly what I want, and it ruins the surprise. I'm planning on buying all my friends and family awesome presents too.

I need a forking shower.


Mon, Oct. 3rd, 2005, 09:29 pm

I don't know if the happy high from yesterday hasn't worn off yet or if I keep catching myself at content moments.

Mrs. Maples gave us a project rubric last friday. It's like a career research project. I layed into it today and it's way easier than I thought it was. I decided to research being an art teacher. We get extra credit if we interview someone in the career so this'll be simple.

Mrs. Maples is so damn cool. She's a great teacher and she don't take crap from anybody. I came to get Bryan today because he's in her Geometry class and he was getting help. She saw my "Don't litter, have your animal spayed or neutered" shirt and started telling me about her 2 relatives that were big vegetarian animal activists. Totally random yet totally cool. Apparently there's a new law floating around in N.C. where people get fined if they don't have their pet fixed or registered for breeding. We were both in agreement that it was a good idea. Don't get me started on how many homeless animals there are. It's fucking ridiculous. By the way, Pedro is getting his nuts chopped off on Wednesday. It's about fucking time.

I'm feeling a little more confident about careers. Maybe I'll go to Appalachian State. They have a great art department and it'd be a breeze getting into that school. I have an Appalachian State sticker on the back of the Prelude anyways from when Kevin's sister drove it. Isn't that quaint.

Gawd I have horrible B.O. today. I don't know why, I wore deodorant. >< I am so happy for Sam. She made homecoming court. She's one of two girls for the Sophmores. A lot of preppy bitches are mad that she made it. THEY NEED TO SHUT THE FUCK UP BECAUSE I AM FUCKING TIRED OF THESE RICH BITCHES WINNING EVERYTHING! She got paired up with my ex-boyfriend Ryan. I only dated him for like 5 days so it doesn't mean anything. She gets to dance with him at the football game this friday. I WANT TO DANCE WITH HIM (fuck, no I do not!) Sam is the coolest. I offered to drive her and Ryan in the parade. The prelude has a moon-roof so they could like, lean out of it. It might hurt when I put it in the wrong gear and it jerked back and forth but it would be loads of fun! *snicker*

Man, my eyes are tired and I have math homework to do. Fuxorz.

Sun, Oct. 2nd, 2005, 09:40 pm
Hey! Hey!

You'll be happy to know I've uploaded 2 new sketches:



And also 3 deviations ^.~




YOU BETTER BE GRATEFUL! YOU'RE LUCKY YOU'RE GETTING THIS MUCH, WHY, BACK IN MY DAY...yea, anywho, be grateful, usually you can expect 0 new pieces during the school year, but I'm feeling feisty. ^^ Anyways. I made chocolate tofu pudding today. It's one of those things that tastes funny at first, then after 3 hours you want more of it....good thing I've got some left over *inhales leftover pudding*...omg. I had a bunch of Peta stickers and flyers in the closet and felt guilty for not giving them out. Emilee noticed and took them off my hands. She put together little information packets to give out to her friends. My little activist is growing up! *sniffle*

We went to Wal-mart today and a little girl saw that I was wearing Emilee's Edward Scissorhands shirt and she seemed very excited. "MOMMY, MOMMY! THAT GIRL IS WEARING AN EDWARD SCISSORHANDS SHIRT!" So cute.

Alexander is just a movie full of humpity-hump. Am I the only one who notices that I'm always making entries while the rest of my family is watching a blockbuster "hit". More like a blockbuster shit.

I got lots of work done, I'm ahead, I feel confident about who I am, I submitted new art, I had TOFU today, I get to see my dad this weekend. Overall, I just feel pretty good about everything.

Emilee is harrassing me. Gotta Go ^.~!

Sat, Oct. 1st, 2005, 10:15 pm
oh mai gawwwwd

Finally uploaded a pic or two so I could show everyone on the VF forum what I looked like. I need some chocolate. >< I ate all the chocolate chips I had 'cause I was all like "omg, I'm not gonna eat chocolate anymore 'cause Its makin me break out" which I know isn't true. It's been proven chocolate doesnt make you break out....I don't know what the hell I was thinking. I'm making some dang pudding tomorrow so forget you people.

I also realized recently that I am finally content with my physical build and do not want to lose any more weight. Having a big butt is cool.


There is nothing sweet in the house that I can eat. Even if I could eat those softee cookies or w/e they taste like shit. The sweetest thing I could eat right now would be soymilk...actually thats not bad. I always hear about people just drinking a tall glass of milk....does anyone do that with soymilk? It sounds like a good idea.

I got SO much work done today. Too bad it's school work. I completed my dialectical journals(analyzing literature) for "All Quiet on the Western Front". That is such a sad book. It reminds me so much of the Vietnam war, and of the Iraq war too. All wars are the same. They all suck.

Mom started eating meat again today. How lame. 6 days is not enough time to see a difference in your health. She also never walked with me.

Arnold Schwartzenegger is totally a douche, totally. But that one guy, who was in "The Stupids", tom arnold? yea, he's cool. How they ended up together in some movie my stepdad is watching...I'll never know.

I hate the tv. I cannot wait to get my own place, because the fucking tv will never be on. Except when I find a good documentary or movie. At my mom's house, the t.v. is on for background noise. Bryan turned it on this morning and I was doing homework. It was like 9:30 in the morning. Then he decides to go take a shower and just walks away. He LEAVES the t.v. on. What the fuxorz.

Travis(half-brother) came to visit yesterday and checked out the my sketchbook for tattoo ideas. He liked the Irish Cross idea, but thinks it would look better with more detail, so I'm gonna work on that one. He also has a gig for me. Some friends of his have a daughter and want a pencil or charcoal sketch done. I don't know how much to charge but I was thinking $25 for a nice sized one? Like definately bigger than a sketchbook page. Who knows, any gig is better than no gig. I need more money for christmas presents.

I really need to go to bed. Mom is going to make us clean tomorrow I know it.

Wed, Sep. 28th, 2005, 07:34 pm

You Are A: Frog!

froggyIndependent yet still part of a large community, frogs are unique creatures known for their distinctive sound and ability to hop. As a frog, you spend your days sitting on lily pads or climbing trees, searching for delicious insects to eat. While there are some frogs that aren't exactly cute, you are certainly not one of those!

You were almost a: Monkey or a Squirrel
You are least like a: Turtle or a LambCute Animal Test!

I'm hungry, I'm the worst procrastinator ever, and I have chocolate addictions.

Omg, I wanna sketch. And eat spaghetti. ^^


Wed, Sep. 28th, 2005, 07:49 am
Adventures in Vegan Cooking

I have not had too many encounters with tofu. I've attempted to cook it about 4 times and I know I've done it wrong each time. Your supposed to drain it, but I never do. That probably explains a lot. Well, yesterday I wanted to make Tofu Italiano from "The Teen's Vegetarian Cookbook" (picked up a used copy at Ed Mckay's). It's super simple. All you do is DRAIN and cube the tofu and brown it in a skillet for 5 minutes, then adding pasta sauce and some vegetables and cooking it on medium low to warm in up. You served it over pasta of some kind. I had one problem. As soon as I opened the tofu, the smell of ass permeated the kitchen. For real, like "I forgot to wipe yesterday" ass smell. Oh my gawd, I'm thinking 'why the hell does this kind of thing have to happen when the vegan is cooking?' Cause you know I'm reinforcing everyone's stereotypes. Tofu is the exotic dish from hell that tastes like shit and any food associated with the word vegan must be avoided at all costs. I cooked it anyways, thinking the ass smell would go away, and ate some. It all tasted pretty good, except the times I got a faint whiff of ass as I took a bite. >< I ate one plate and then threw the rest away. I ate the rest of the spaghetti noodles with a can of peas and some more sauce. It was slightly better but my plate still smelled of ass. Mom thinks the tofu had gone bad or something. Probably, because I've never smelled any like it before.

On a happier note, Emilee recently made two vegetarian t-shirts. One for her and one for her friend Jennifer. On the front they say "Steak is Wack" and on the back they say "Veggies are Dope". She's letting me wear her's today. Sweet.

More good news! Mom stuck to her veg pledge and hasn't had any meat since sunday. I also realized that she does not eat breakfast nor lunch during the day because she is too busy. Big no-no. Poor mom, no wonder she's tired all the time. I offered to make her a lunch today.

I've been sketching a lot lately and what I need is practice, especially on human forms. Gosh, I suck. I figure if I draw some each day I'll improve. We're supposed to do a segment on anatomy in Art class, so that will help. Check you crackaz later.


Sat, Sep. 24th, 2005, 09:56 pm
All for the taste of your sweet love, Thelma....

I'm feeling just blah right now...Mom never ended up walking with me. Since she didn't feel good and we got home too late the next day. We were sitting in the parking lot of Emilee's middle school waiting for Emilee to get back from a football game, and it was just me and her. I asked her about her bad cholesterol and she said "I was thinking about giving up meat for a week to see if I felt better." OMG! JUMP FOR JOY! I was so glad to here this. I said "alright, cool!, you should definately try it!" We talked more about health. We talked about mom's uber-unhealthy co-workers who smoke. The woman who works in the desk next to her smokes like a train and drinks like a fish, AND she's overweight. She's so sick it's awful. The key to getting people to make healthier choices is talking about other people who are even less healthful. Sad, but true.

After Emilee finally got back we went to the grocery store and bought a million canned and frozen vegetables. It was insane compared to the usual shopping list. We got home and it was way too late for walking dogs.

I got irritated with mom for not walking with me the next day. She said "I'm sorry, I just don't feel good." Then she said "Let me start Monday, it'll be my fresh new day! I'll even start the no meat thing!" So that was enough to make me happy. Hopefully she follows through. Hopefully.

Daddy still hasn't touched the book. I asked him if he knew that boy chicks get ground up alive. He sounded alarmed. We went to the vet today. The vet recommended giving Tundra less food and maybe replacing it with a more fiberful food like green beans to help her lose weight. I thought that was cool. Then he suggested supplementing her food with Glucosamine/Chondroitin 500/400. We went to wal'mart and he got a $30 bottle there. I kept telling him to check online for cheaper prices. He was like "look on here and see if there are any ingredients you don't like, I don't see any gelatin." I read it and was happy to see he was right, no gelatin, TOO BAD RIGHT BELOW IT SAID "THIS CONTAINS SHELLFISH!" Great, just great. Well he bought it anyways. I'm just irritated because technically he isn't a vegetarian....or is it one of those "how far do you wanna take it" things? He doesn't grasp the whole AR point of vegetarianism, how can you expect him to care about shellfish? I just got tired of it and decided not to push anymore. I dunno, it's just not working. When I try to tell him that he shouldn't buy this stuff, I just feel like a puritan bitch. He is making an effort. I mean, he doesn't eat meat, that's a HUGE accomplishment on my part. I think I'll just leave vegan books everywhere and hope for the best. Oh and a few fun facts about cancerous pus statistics can't hurt.

I got a sakura pen. FINALLY, a pen for good inking! ^^

Friday we went to see corpse bride. THAT was a cool movie. The previews made it look like a "Nightmare before Christmas" wannabe, but it was totally different. The animation was way better. I wanna see it over again. Tim Burton is a genius. Spencer brought two guys from the highschool nearby. The single one was the same softspoken nerdy guy I saw at the movies before. It sucked being single after that movie. Why do I like the quiet, nerdy ones? Honestly, it gets me into more trouble than I need.

The local health food store had a copy of "The Garden of Vegan". Boy was that random...maybe someone asked them to order it...I can't wait to buy that entire series.


Wed, Sep. 21st, 2005, 06:06 pm

Today at lunch we were all hanging out in our little weirdo corner I told you about, and cassie was putting tuna on her sandwich. Uber yuck, so anyways liz was like "ew" and cass said "it looks gross right now.." and I said "tuna is gross 24/7" and she was like "I love tuna, mmmm." I was like "Ew, Cholesterol bomb." She said "It's better for you than other meats" I said "not by much, plus the mercury content." and she was like "whatever".

I know I made her mad. She acted weird the rest of the day. I dunno, I did feel bad, because maybe I was too vegangelical, but did she really have to tell me how much she liked it? I always get vibes that she abhors my veganism. Why can't people see how bad it is for them?? Do they enjoy ignorance? Is it truly bliss for them? I can't see how they like it so much. I felt like a jerk the rest of the day. I don't know whether to be mad at myself or be mad at her. Whatever.

I keep feeling bad because I see my mom in poor health and it's so weird because if she was vegan, all her problems would go away. She'd be in perfect health. But she'd never be vegan. Everyone's so hard to talk to...but she did promise to walk the dogs down the street with me once she got off work, so maybe I can inspire a healthy habit?? I hope so...

I keep thinking about jobs, and all I wanna do is be unemployed. What the hell is so great about having a job? Money? Ya, when the fuck did that ever pose as a valid motivation? Why can't I just be. Because If I don't become something I'll dissapoint everyone. What am I saying? Maybe it's just the hunger talking...I am the burrito queen.

SPEAKING OF BURRITOS! Last night after the GS meeting, we went to taco bell (ya, sorry, I never pass up a good bean burrito) and so I was like "omg, burrito time." so I ordered 4 bean burritos(I eat a lot, k? plus one of them is for school) "OMG, DON'T PUT CHEESE ON THEM, OK??" And we got them and I checked one and it looked fine. So we got in the car and were driving down the road, I'm looking real close at my burrito cause I keep seeing lettuce and thinking it is cheese. Then I finish the first one and open another...it has cheese on it. Apparently so do the other 2 I ordered. I tell my mom and she is pissed (which is pretty damn awesome considering she's an omnivore) since this is the second time this has happened. I'm being all meek and "oh, its ok" and mom's like "AW HELLZ NO!" so we go back to taco bell and pull up to the drive thru. They want us to come in the store and mom is like "UH, NO MA'M I'M IN A HURRY!" So we wait 15 minutes and they give us the burritos. Mom's like "thankyou, dairy products make her sick, she can't eat them." emilee's like "no they don't" moms like "yes they do!" At first I was flattered that she would say that but now I'm thinking she was lying to avoid an awkward moment, then again she told them I was vegan last time. It was cool. I didn't enjoy my meal as much sent we went through all that. I kept worrying that the first burrito had had cheese on it, and that I might have eaten cheese, even if it doesnt matter. I didn't taste any cheese, but then again, maybe I forgot what cheese tasted like(I hope so!)

So anyways, Dad still hasn't started on the "vegan freak" book. It's irritating me. >< but anywho, patience is the key. Mom's home! Time to walk 'dem doggiez!


Sat, Sep. 17th, 2005, 11:15 pm
What is so damn great about leather?

We drove to Kmart today 'cause Dad likes their cheap shoes. He was trying on some tennis shoes w/ leather in them, and of course I was like "ew". Right next to the icky leather shoes was a whole shelf of this one brand that was "all man made materials". I found a pair he said he liked in his size and he said he would try them on. Too bad after he finished trying on the leather shoes he said "lets go". I was like wtf man?? I was pissed. We got back in the car and I started driving back home. I was all quiet and I bet I had a bitchy face on 'cause he asked me what was wrong. I told him that I didn't understand why he didn't try on the veg shoes. He said that he liked the other kind. I was like whatever.

We came home and Uncle Paul had called so we met him at John's Seafood and Barbecue *ya, mai favorite! NOT!* The only people eating meat were Uncle Paul and his girl friend Angie. I got a plain baked potato and green beans, Emilee got a baked potato and green beans too, but she put butter all up in her potato, so gross. Dad got a baked potato and salad, of course he slathered sour cream all over the dang potato. So basically the main topic was vegetarianism, which was pretty darn cool. We discussed the benefits and things. I mentioned the "Cold Tofu Program" from "Vegan Freak" and we talked about the possible origin of Mad Cow Disease recently discussed on Vegan Porn. Angie got the link for vegan porn and said she wanted to check it out. It was neato. I think we made them interested. We went to Wal-mart afterwards and dad bought lots of beans and soy milk and whatnot. He has 10 boxes of Optimum Power cereal.10 BOXES! He's like a dang chipmunk. Paul and Angie were obviously feeling healthy, so they picked up slim-fast(wtf, bad choice) and diet green tea. Someone please kill the corporate idiot who decided to f*** with green tea. Now everyone buys this aspartem/high fructose crap that is supposed to have the benefits of green tea. Angie got some optimum power and Paul was talking about buying soymilk. It's a good sign! I can't wait to cook something come holiday time and share it with them.

I'm pretty tired...I cannot wait to get Vegan with a Vengeance. That book is gonna rock so hard. ^^ Oh man.

bye crackaz

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